Monday, Nov. 25, 2013
Roll: 6,2. Result: Feelings, Description.
What’s a good feeling? Frustration? Yeah! Well, no it doesn’t feel good, but it is rich, rich with feels. And that is good.
Frustration is an inability to control your reaction to your unexpected inability to get something that you want. Or perhaps it is just the feeling you get when you realize that you can’t achieve something you thought you could, in the way you wanted. It’s wanting, and not getting. But more specifically, it’s wanting and believing that you can have something, and not getting it. Google says: “the feeling of being upset or annoyed, esp. because of inability to change or achieve something.”
Frustration is zipping your coat halfway, only to have it jam. It’s being in a rush to go outside when your zipper snags. It’s being ready to go, but your friend isn’t here yet. It’s texting your friend, but they won’t reply until it’s too late. It’s showing up on time, only to be told that you have to use the rear entrance to the parking lot, even though you can see that you can easily drive in the front way. It’s getting a flat on your way to the show. It’s realizing that they thought you knew they needed to be picked up. It’s being so close to the perfect sentence, but not knowing the right word to end it.
It’s seeing your holy grail, reaching out to it, and finding a glass barrier. More importantly, it’s not being dissuaded by the glass barrier, not yet. Frustration is the last step before either failure or inspiration followed by success. Frustration implies continued action, whereas failure and success lead to inaction. Of course, you can have action without frustration, as is usually planned. This makes frustration just that much more… frustrating.
Frustration forces you out of control. If you were in control, you wouldn’t be frustrated. It puts you somewhere you weren’t prepared to be, and in this way, forces you to grow. You can be frustrated now so that you won’t be frustrated next time. Or the time after that, or after that, and so on. But frustration is still just being so close, after so much going according to plan, and then NOT getting it. It’s being caught off guard, and being so close that you thought it was a given, when it wasn’t. You mount that hurdle, or let it get the best of you, but it’s bound to happen again, either way. It’s frustration, and it’s bound to frustrate, especially when you least expect it.